I can’t play small anymore
It’s time to admit that I don’t want to let go.
I found a groove, and it’s comfortable. I found it here, in this newsletter to you every week.
This was the place that I put down the burden of my shadows and allowed them to find sunlight. This is where I worked through my failures to find lessons and test their merit. This is where I learned by doing that courage is a synonym for conscious vulnerability.
As a result of a year’s work, here, I’m different. And now The Grind has to become different too.
And yet it will still be the same.
It is still a place where I will come to find out how courageous I can be. But the vulnerability I have to embrace now won’t come from talking about imperfections, healing, and mindset. I’ve done that already, thoroughly.
I’m not healed entirely or done doing my work. But I have done a lot of deep work over the last twelve months, and the fruit of that labor is the power to impact a lot of people with my work.
And that’s scary.
It means I probably have to make some changes that some of you might not love.
It means I have to start speaking with the confidence that I genuinely feel every day when I wake up because that’s my truth.
It means accepting that the work I’ve done was always going to lead me to a place where I would have more power, and not utilizing it would be to miss the point entirely.
It means I can’t play small anymore.
I’ve always wanted to be relatable. I’ve never wanted to be one of those sales-y guys who come off like a know it all.
But it’s time to grow. It’s time to start doing things to reach many more people than I have so far — many, many more people.
And that’s scary.
So I guess this is me going back to what I know, sharing that I’m walking towards my fear because it’s the only thing that feels right. I’ve done too much work and created too much power to do anything else.
I have until the end of the year to figure out the new approach. On January 6th, The Grind will be different. I don’t know how yet, but it will be. I’ll be trying things along the way because that’s the work.
I hope you’ll find whatever it becomes to be as valuable as what it’s been. But if not, I want to thank you for being a part of what it’s been this year. There is no question that this practice of accountability has made me a healthier, happier, more fulfilled person. For that, I have you to thank.
There is such a thing as fear of greatness.
I will not live under that fear.
Be great, and have a grateful day.